Aug 31, 2013
Aug 28, 2013
I want to go back to California. I want to sit on my mountain and meditate till the sun goes down. I want to see the sand. I want to touch the gritty sand under my feet. I want to feel the warm water on my toes. I want to go to LA and act like a teenager. I want to reinvent myself.
Feb 15, 2013
I want to tell you about my husband. I met him when I was 16 years old. I knew of him...I didn't know him. We dated briefly in high school and although we broke up for whatever reason we remain very good friends. We always seemed to know where the other was. We knew what the other was feeling. We always had a connection. We moved on in our lives. We both started dating other people and lost touch briefly. Then he called me out of the blue. To this day I don't know how he even found my number. He called to tell me that he was going to have his second baby. I already knew about the first when we bumped into each other at a football game. Come to find out he was living 10 minutes away the whole time. After the birth of my son he found me again and brought over all our friends to meet my new little guy. After that we were inseparable. We've had our up and downs. One big up was our daughter. We were now a family. Later on he told me that he watched me walk down the hall at our old high school and told his friend that he was going to marry me someday. That day came true on October 9, 2004. I married my best-friend. My soul-mate. My everything. I love you honey for every and always. Happy Valentines Day.
Feb 9, 2013
I have the most horrible PMS ever. It's very debilitating. I have the worst cramps. I'm cranky as if all hell has broken loose. To top it off my daughters are on sync with me. WHOOPEE!! Sometimes I wish I could be left alone for a week with no one to bug me. That would be awesome.
Feb 4, 2013
My life. What can I say. I have everything I want. I have a great home in a perfect location for Worthington. A home that keeps me warm in the winter and cool in the summer. Close to everything and everywhere I go. I have the ability to go to the fridge and get something to eat or drink should I need substance or a beverage. When I get dirty I have the luxury of having a shower or bath to keep myself clean. I have a loving family who needs me. Which lets face it, it's pretty cool to be needed in anyway possible when your kids are growing up so fast. I have awesome friends whom I can go to for anything. Advice. Comradely. Friendship. Love. Anything I want. I have transportation. If I should want to go to the mall or store all I have to go is turn a key and drive. My children love me. They treat me with respect. They come to me for advice. They listen to what I have to say. They see my little quirks and accept me for who I am. They aren't embarrassed to be seen with their mother. I have a husband who loves me unconditionally and deeply. He tells me everyday how beautiful I am. He tells me how much he loves me everyday. He shows me by little things like notes and such to let me know how much he appreciates me. I know and feel it in my bones he is my soul-mate. I got everything I want in a man right in front of me. I love my life. I love my family. I love me.
Jan 30, 2013
Jan 29, 2013
Jan 24, 2013
I'm going to do what I can to do about going to the gym everyday. I like the feeling of taking a hour and walking a couple of miles. Breaking a sweat and listening to some good music. I'm have several I can go to. I'll decide later which one I want to go to.
Jan 23, 2013
Today I went to the fitness club and I loved it. I feel so alive and ready for the world. I didn't like my numbers in the beginning. I have a BMI (body mass index) of 35% . This is not good for me. In order to get the BMI I had to get on the scale. I hate the scale. It has never been a friend of mine. I have battled with this machine for the last 15 or so years. I mustered up the courage and step on the monster. I'm not afraid to say I was 151 pounds. This is the biggest I've been in 5 years. This weight triggered so much pain and heartbreak. I stepped off the scale shook it off. Wiped away any tears and went on with the rest of my evaluation. This is a huge deal for me. Of course I broke down in the car on the way home and came to the realization that I'm not all that bad. I'm portioned just right and shouldn't worry about it. With me working out, that weight will fall off and I will do it the healthy way.
Jan 22, 2013
Jan 18, 2013
Nothing huge happened today. Went on a date with the hubs. Saw Pitch Perfect (again) but this time it was in the theater, not on the tele. We had to sit in the very front row....now my neck hurts. It's worth it though. It's that good of a movie. Got dinner for the kids then came home. Not a very productive day. In fact I don't remember most of the day. Must of been that boring. HAHA
Today went smoothly. I went to my DBT and therapy classes. Got to take the bus, which brings back a lot of memories. Good memories, bad memories. Memories non the less. my wonderful hubby picked me up at CVS so I didn't have to walk the mile back home. Isn't he sweet?! Donated about 10 bags of clothes. Which can make anyone feel the love. By the time I got home the girls were done with school and ready for the day. This doesn't normally happen. I even told them to do the dishes and they did so without complaint. So as a little reward (and slowly loosening my control of everything) we dropped them off at the local (and little) mall with a friend. While we did that we surprised my youngest daughter with a new phone. Then to make everything even better my hubby took me out to lunch. Sometimes it's the little things that keep us going. XOXO
Jan 16, 2013
Tomorrow my mother leaves to go back home to California :( I really didn't get to spend as much time with her as I wanted to, but I did get to see her. I love my mommy. She's probably...no scratch that she is my best friend. I can tell her anything and she can do the same. When we need each other we're there. It's more than a mother-daughter thing. It's everything.
Jan 15, 2013
Jan 14, 2013
Jan 13, 2013
My shopping is going through someone else's closet. I love doing this. I love hand-me-downs. Lacey was going through her closet and decided to get rid of a bunch of clothes...we were on it like fly's to honey. We each got what we wanted and thanked her profusely for the outfits. This seems to happen a lot. I find people who want to give up clothes and I'm right there. I can't say no to a nice shirt. You never know when your going to need it. So tonight I will go through my own clothes and let the girls fight over them....yeah right. I'll donate them. That always makes me feel better about myself.
Jan 12, 2013
I have had the pleasure of having no children under my roof for a week. Al's at his dad's. Babbit's picked up hours. Lacey and Chris are in Gahanna and my babies Emma and Katey are in Ashville. No one should be home till Sunday which I am so happy about. I get Saturday afternoon by myself....much needed time to relax. I'm hoping that I can finish the book I'm reading (The Hobbit) and be at peace. Later I visit my mother, step-father, step-brother and Gammy on Saturday night. Which I'm stoked about as well. Goodnight folks.