My Christmas...

You can copy and paste it on your blog/email. Just copy and fill it in. Have fun! 1. WRAPPING PAPER OR GIFT BAG? Total gift bag girl. I can't stand wrapping anything. But I prefer to unwrap a gift then take it out of a bag. What's wrong with me? lol 2. REAL OR FAKE TREE: Fake all the way. Can't stand the needles and constant watering. I have absolutely no green thumb. And it's just easier with kids. All of that and I was raised with fake trees...sooooo 3. WHEN DO YOU PUT UP THE TREE: Generally we put it up Thanksgiving night. However this year we put it up about a week or two late. 4. WHEN DO YOU TAKE THE TREE DOWN: As soon as possible....get everything back into order. But Chris likes it up for a while after.....I win. ;) 5. DO YOU LIKE EGGNOG: LOVE LOVE LOVE eggnog!! I get it from my mother!! Thanks mom. 6. FAVORITE GIFT RECEIVED AS A CHILD: I had several. Puffalumps, cabbage patch kids, a big barbie head (to practice my makeup and hair skills) and my all time fav.....the Globe. hehehe 7. DO YOU HAVE A NATIVITY SCENE: I do not. Sad isn't it. 8. HARDEST PERSON TO BUY FOR: My kids.....I never know what to get them. EVER!! 9. WORST CHRISTMAS GIFT YOU EVER GOT: I really don't recall ever getting a gift I didn't like. I love presents!! 10. EASIEST PERSON TO BUY FOR: I would have to say my hubby, Chris. Get him some socks and he's cool. 11. MAIL OR EMAIL CHRISTMAS CARDS: If I sent out cards.... 12.FAVORITE CHRISTMAS MOVIE: The Christmas Story!! Best holiday movie ever! 13. WHEN DO YOU START SHOPPING FOR CHRISTMAS: About a week before.....I know, I'm horrible. 14. HAVE YOU EVER RECYCLED A CHRISTMAS PRESENT: No, I don't believe I have. (apparently I've watched to much Star Trek...I'm talking like Spock. lol) 15. FAVORITE THING TO EAT AT CHRISTMAS: Mommy's fruit minced pie! It's the bomb. That and mommy's famous cheeseball! 16. COLORED OR CLEAR LIGHTS ON THE TREE: I love color. Just not the flashing ones...which is what Chris and the kids love. So we compromise and have both. I'm a sucker for smiles on holidays. 17. TRAVEL AT CHRISTMAS OR STAY HOME: The one time I was GOING to travel for Christmas I got shingles....so now I stay home. 18. CAN YOU NAME ALL OF SANTA'S REINDEER: I could say yes (just to one up my sister lol) however....No. Sadly I have kids and don't know ALL the reindeer names. I know I know, I'm pathetic hehe. 19.ANGEL ON THE TREE TOP, OR A STAR: We have an angel right now. But normally we put a star up. One that lights up and is all cheesy!! I love those. 20. OPEN THE PRESENTS CHRISTMAS EVE OR MORNING: Since we have so many different places to go and people to see we usally wait until Christmas night. It's quiet and calm and just us. 21. MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT THIS TIME OF YEAR: In Ohio it has to be the holiday drivers. I can't stand them. Learn how to drive people!! 22. WHAT DO YOU ENJOY MOST ABOUT CHRISTMAS: My family!! Always have always will. 23. HOT CHOCOLATE OR CIDER: Both....why do I have to choose!! 24. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR CHRISTMAS: All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth. Sorry......what was the question? 25.FAVORITE CHRISTMAS SONG: Anything by Nat King Cole!!

Happy Birthday Son

On December 21 1996 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. Alexander Mason. My son. My first born son. You had a head full of dark hair, your dad's nose and my chin. Your cry was the sweetest cry I've ever heard. When the nurse put you in my arms I fell in love so deep. I never thought I could love someone so much. I could see so much for you. I wanted to give you everything that you deserve and more. You have taught me much in the last thirteen years Al. You have taught me patience, when I thought I didn't have any. You've taught me how to really love, when I thought I didn't deserve any. You've taught me to be strong, when others are weak. YOU have taught ME! I love you son, very much. Happy birthday!

Holloween 2009 (I know it's late but deal with it)

I had the honor or taking my children, their friends, their boyfriends and the boyfriends cousin. A total of 8 kids (not including myself...hehehe). I loved watching the kids running from house to house getting as much candy as they could. It brought wonderful memories of my childhood at Colonial Hills back to me. Best believe next year we are so going to my old hood for beggars night.

Front Row: Alex, Vadelia, Hannah, Emma Back row: Robert Lacey and Katey

Lacey's having a great time. She was supposed to be a man...but it really didn't turn out that way.

Emma of course was a Fiery Princess.

Alex in all his Glory!!!

This is Steven he came along to make fun of Robert and to help with the 'Little Ones'

This would be Robert and yes he's dress like a girl. (he was kind to give Alex his mask) So Robert went as a Girl

Katey was a of Goth Princess. I see my future and I'm VERY SCARED!!!

Of course this is Hannah Banana. She was also a Princess.

This is Vadelia (Roberts little sister). She went as princess herself.

How Things Are Going.....

I have good days and I have bad days, just like everyone else. I'm staying on top of my meds and feeling good about myself. And it's been a looooong time since that has happened. The kids are doing good. Alex is playing the Trombone and still in Boy Scouts. Katey is reading so much I practically have to rip the books away at bedtime. Emma is still Emma. Cute and wonderful. Always worried about someone or something. But in a good way. She's always been full of love and this is what amazes me about my youngest daughter. She sees the light in everything. Lacey...well lets just say that being 15 yrs old is rough. Of course! However, she is coming through with fling colors. Chris and I just celebrated out 5 year anniversary this past Friday. WOW 5 years!!! I'm shooting for about 100,000,000,000,000 years more. ;) I'm still going to counseling and seeing my doctor on a regular basis. Things seem to be lighting up for all of us. I feel I have to say this, though I believe everyone already knows, I love my family with every fiber of my being. My kids and husband have been through the ringer with me and they have stayed by my side through the whole ordeal. The last several months have been difficult I know, but they are all there to make me smile..even if I don't want to. My mother, sister and brothers (this includes husbands and wives) have supported me in whatever I do. They have been there to listen to me cry or scream or yell or really anything. I love you all very much. Thank you for being in my life. And I also know that my wonderful Poppy is always with me. Right next to me when I need him the most. I can feel him!! Anyway I just wanted to give an update and whatnot's. I love you all and will talk to everyone real soon!!

Short Note

If you don't already know I spent 4 days in the hospital for mental reasons. I'm considering having another blog to explain how someone can get through depression and anxiety. Or at least my path on the subject. Maybe this is my path? Maybe this is what I'm supposed to do? Just maybe Heavenly Father has put this in front of me to help others. My Grandmother Wendy told me that I needed to be in the public...doing something with people. Maybe this can be my contribution. What do you think?

This SUCKS!!

I have no idea what to put down other than I'm having a REALLY REALLY hard time with EVERYTHING!! I tried to get into a program that just MAY help....but my insurance won't pay for ANY of it. I don't have $1000.00 a day for the program. My gas got shut off and we have no hot water. Britt and Josh have been really good sports with letting us use their stove, shower and whatever else we need. I'm right now at the library to write this. I'm mad, sad, angry, hurt...you name it and I'm feeling it. The meds seem to be working, but I don't how much they're really working. I feel like shit. I feel like my life is only for my kids and I don't even have the strength to deal. Maybe I do need to be somewhere else. Maybe I need to get away?! But where does someone go when your mind won't let you escape? I feel like I'm going CRAZY!!!!! I mean really CRAZY!

I Can't Do This Alone....

My life is rough right now. I cannot do it alone. I just wanted to thank my mother, husband, kids, brothers and sisters. I also would like to thank my Doctor, counsiler and friends. Without them I don't know if I could get through all the shit I'm going through. So thank you for all that y'all are doing. I love you all!!

Happy Birthday Poppy!!

Happy Birthday Poppy! You're the best.

A Special Email

My wonderful Aunt Linda sent me an e-mail and sadly I never really read it until tonight. I was always to busy or just didn't feel like reading at that time. If it doesn't have pictures I may just pass it by. Just kidding of course, however I was sorting through all the mail when I had a strong need to read what was sent to me weeks ago. I was blown away! It was exactly what I needed to hear and at one of my lowest moments to boot. I wanted to share it with all of you and hope it fills your hearts as it did mine. Thank you Aunt Linda for these wonderful words. I love you!! ***** Wrote By Natatlie Tucker Miller---There is no urgency, ever Great things happen when you feel safe and are in an environment rich with possibility. More than ever I understand that you can learn a lot about how someone feels about themselves by listening to what they are saying about others. If you spend too much time concerned about a back up plan, the chance is great that you will end up doing the back up plan. Life will deliver to you what you expect. Be willing to stand by your ideas while allowing others to do the same, no matter how opposing they may seem. If you want quality, abandon deadlines. Instead, target dates will keep you on track with the built in flexibility that will net more satisfying results. Everything works out in the end. If it hasn’t worked out, it’s not the end. The notion that nothing is personal has more power than anything else I’ve learned. However anyone feels about you or what you are doing is from their unique frame of reference. That’s all any of us have until we decide to remove the frame and allow an unlimited view. This is when relationships can grow and strengthen even under the most adverse of conditions. There is always a choice. Everybody is right. Replacing self-criticism with self-reflection has magic powers. Inspire others by being inspired by them.

Father's Day

This is how I remember my father. Happy, healthy and full of live. This is how I will always see him. He loved cars and a hanging out with his family. I can't be with him today of all days. I cry every time someone says "Happy Fathers Day". It doesn't feel the same. My father's not here. Why should I be happy? Yeah I know Chris is my kids dad, and he deserves the absolute best. He's a great father. I give him many kudos for being who he is. He's the best. I couldn't ask for someone better. It's just very hard to see my kids going to their dad and hugging, kissing and giving homemade cards and I can't do the same. It hurts so much. So very much. Please don't get me wrong...I'm very thankful for all the fathers out there. Y'all rock!! Really you do. I just want mine back.

My Mini Vacation

I have spent the last 5 nights in total bliss. The boy was at his dad's, Lacey was at her friends and Katey and Emma were at Patty's house. Originally it was going to be only for one or two nights then the days start adding up. It's been great!! We've gotten to sleep in, go to the pool and chill, take naps, watch the TV shows WE want to watch and NOT DO ANYTHING! I have to admit I haven't been cleaning either. It's been to relaxing. I seriously took a mini vacation!! I didn't even have to leave the state. It was great. We talked to the kids a couple times a day and recouped ourselves for the rest of the summer. And trust me when I say the next several weeks are going to be hell on both Chris and I!! Camping, pool parties, house party (Lacey wants this one) not to mention all the friends the kids want to stay the night. The way I think about it....If I only get these short 5 days of peace and quiet for the rest of the summer, I should be just fine.

Emma and Her Chin

Emma told me that she was done putting antibiotic ointment on her chin. It was healed enough. I asked her why? She said that she wanted to have a scar. Again I asked her why? Emma then turned to me and said..."That way I'll have a scar just like you and Alex." I just melted.

Cookies

Lacey asked her daddy if she could go to the store and get ingredients to make chocolate chip cookies for everyone. Chris told Lacey to talk me into taking all the children including one of Emma's little friends from school. Lacey and her childlike ways looked at her father, smiled, padded her eyelashes and said..."But daddy I wanted YOU to take us." "Why?" Chris asked chuckling. "Because your my daddy and I wanted to go with YOU." Chris went happily to the store with a huge smile on his face.

Wanna See Something Freaky...

Okay so when I went to my mothers blog I saw this picture and thought to myself....WOW I look just like my beautiful mother...You be the judge.

My Little Champ!!

Emma Jane just learned how to ride a bike a couple of weeks ago. She's so proud of herself. I'm so very proud of her. She has accomplished and overcome so much in the last several months. Emma's no longer scared of the dark (as long as the door is open..baby steps), swims in the 5 feet (huge accomplishment) and rides a bike. Today Emma and her friends went for a bike ride at the school. The next thing I know Kelsey was knocking and knocking and knocking and wouldn't let up until I opened the door. She looked at me with her big doe eyes and told me that Emma was really hurt and needed Chris and I. I yelled at Chris to get the car and meet me at the school. I run out the door so fast the next thing I knew I was at my daughters side. When I got there Emma was moved to a neighbors house. Emma's little friend Hannah and her mother were there putting pressure on her chin, which was gashed pretty well. Then I look up and Destiny's mother was starting to put a cold compress on Emma's finger. I looked at my youngest daughter with tears in her eyes, knelt by her side and prayed. Prayed that she will be okay. Prayed that Heavenly Father will watch over her and calm her heart. Chris pulled up and we went to the Hospital. There we sat and waited for the doctor to come back. Then all of a sudden a familiar voice started coming into the room. It was Dr. John. This was the same P.A that treated Katey and Emma for strep. Well, he remembered Emma and wanted to take care of her himself. Emma remembered him as well and she was immediately at ease. She didn't have to get used to another doctor. Trust me when I say that ALL of us were totally relieved. This man was awesome. He walked Emma through everything that he was going to do. First they took and x-ray of her finger...all good, other than the bruising. So when that was all done he looked at Emma's chin and said that she was going to have to fix it. Emma asked for the super glue, Dr. John told Emma that he was going to get a Nurse to bring in some numbing stuff then he'll put on the glue. When the Nurse came in all Emma saw was a syringe-like thing. Emma immediately went into a fetal position. Chris and I were stunned and shocked. Both of us went into action. I looked at the Nurse and told her about her anxiety. Thankfully she understood and relaxed herself. Chris and I were trying to relax Emma when the Nurse said that she just needed to get something off her chin and put a piece of gauze with the numbing solution on it. Emma just looked at her and asked if she put on the 'stuff'. The nurse replied with a nob. Emma then said, "That was a smart idea." she then relaxed and laid back. Dr. John came in and glued Emma's chin together and fix her finger (it still needed to be drained of blood). Emma was to be laying down for all of this...which she did not like. He was real quick with the glue and then went her finger. He had to burn a hole in her nail to drain all the blood that was collecting under it. By the time Dr. John was done Emma was smiling and laughing at all his jokes. And making some herself. Below are some of the after shots. Don't worry, it looks worse then what it really is. Emma was an angel through the whole ordeal.

Emma's first battle wound (from her bike) Close up. Looks worse than what it really is. Finger all bandaged up. More updates about this one coming soon.

New Apartment

What I see when I look out my living room window My living room Dining room Wall-O-Photos My new door

I didn't know that Egypt was a Planet?

Chris, Josh, Britt and I were sitting around the table playing Kings Corners when this conversation went down. All of this was while we were all laughing our butts off. Josh: Britt are you from another planet?? Britt: Yes I'm from Egypt. All of us: Say what?! Britt: Yes I'm from Planet Egypt right next to Planet Mercedes. We all lost it. I love you Britt. Thank you for making my day a little brighter.

New Apartment...Pic's coming soon

Moving weekend went rather smooth. All the kids helped (and I mean ALL the kids helped). Not only did we have our 4 but also Robert, V.V, Hannah, Anina, Patty, Dave and Brittany. My old apartment is spotless and my new apartment looks like we've lived here for 10 months. No lie. Now it's time to organize and such. I'll keep you updated when I can. Pictures are coming soon, so don't worry y'alls pretty little heads. My love to everyone who helped. Thank you!!

For my Poppy

A very close friend of mine told me about this song and I fell in love. Thank you Brittany. I love you Poppy forever and ever. Till we meet again.

Crystal Shawanda More CMT Music More CMT Music Videos

In Loving Memory Of Donald Lee Bowman II. I love forever and always.

The man standing with all the children is my wonderful Father, Donald Lee Bowman II. He passed away today (5-04-09). He was 58 years young and full of life. He was a strong and caring man. He was my Poppy. He will be missed. One of my fondest memories of my dad was when my son was born. He held Alex in his arms and would whisper in his ear. I never knew what he told him that day at the hospital but whatever it was Alex listened. After Poppy was finished, Alex decided that his first (pardon the expression) fart was going to be in his grandfathers arms. Poppy just looked at him and smiled. Then said "Good he works. We don't have to give him back." I had a great chuckle over that. I remember going to an overnight camp and when my mom and dad came to pick us up I was in tears. I was so happy to see my Poppy. I never went to camp after that. I remember at nights when my dad had to work late, I would stay up until I heard his voice say "I'm home." then I would go right to sleep. I remember pizza nights in front of the TV watching Micheal Jackson's Moon Walk movie. I remember when I was in any trouble I would go to my Poppy first. He was always the one that would get me out of the trouble I was in, and he was never mad. I will always remember the look the look in his eyes every time he looked at his grandchildren. He was always full of love for them. They always came first. He would bring me clothes, toys, furniture and most of all he would bring them candy. Skittles, MMs, paydays, you name it he would bring it. Poppy will forever and always be loved. You're in a better place Poppy. I'm sure Grandma Helen was there to greet you with open arms. I know that you'll be watch over not only your children but your grandchildren as well. You hold a piece of my heart until I see you again. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Tribute to Brittany and Lacey

Okay I have to tell y'all a little bit about Lacey and Brittany. Brittany is 20 and Lacey just turned 15. When we first met Brittany I fell in love with her. Yes I'm older than her but she's the best. She reminds me a lot of me when I was younger (only she's more together hehe). Anyway, the first time Lacey met Brittany it was totally different. Here was someone who she could relate to more than mom and dad. The wonderful thing about this relationship is that Brittany is someone that Lacey can go to. Whether it's school issues, parent issues, boyfriend issues (Robert is Britt's little brother), just about anything, and I love it. Thank you Britt for being there for Lacey. You mean the world to us, to Lacey. We love you!!

Just Got Word...

I just got word this morning that we got the three bedroom apartment. Someone was nice enough to realize that we needed it more. She even said that. I couldn't believe my ears. How sweet this person is to give up something she's been waiting for a long time for. If I only knew who she was I would hug her and thank her so much for everything. I'll have more on Friday, when we talk to the Manager. I'm so excited.

Update about Lacey

Okay. So Lacey told me something rather interesting right after I posted my last entry. Lacey's friend that threw the party has completely changed her ways, because of Lacey. She acually said that! Lacey showed courage and strength and this young lady saw it. Lacey told me that this child has quit smoking, doing drugs and her grades are back up to B's. She told Lacey that after she left the cops were called and she got really scared. Basicly scared her straight. She got a glemise of something that she didn't like. Reality sunk in for her. When Lacey told me this I was in tears. Of course we all know that Lacey is sensitive, loving and very accepting of other. However, I think that Lacey needed to have someone else see it before she acually believed us. After all we are her family and just a little biased. Lacey I love you with all my heart and soul. You mean the world to your father and I. I'm truely blessed to have such a wonderful daughter. Thank you for being you. I love you sweetheart!

Lacey and Robert

Okay so this might not be the best picture of Lacey and Robert but it'll do. Robert is a 14 yr. old from Reese Ohio. Lacey is 14 yr. old from Worthington (yeah!!!). They both came from completely different families. Different friends. Different schools. Different everything. But somehow this wonderful young man has made my daughter very happy. It's only been a few months but you can see the love in their eyes. Robert makes Lacey smile. Not the smile that a teenager puts on her face for friends and family. A real genuine smile. A smile that you give the one that you love with all your heart. I can see she cares for this boy. And he cares for her. For example: Lacey went to a party at a so-called friends house. She thought it was going to be her friend and herself. Then her "friend" called a bunch of senors and older boys. Lacey got uncomfortable. This "friend" of hers also started snorting X (very strong street drug). Lacey got even more scared. She didn't know what to do, so she called Robert. Robert was fishing with his buddies when he got the call. Lacey was freaking out but Robert kept his cool. He told her to go into the bathroom and lock the door, he would call her right back. He in turn called his dad Scott, and told him the situation. Robert called Lacey and told her to call her dad. When she did this, Scott called to let us know what was going on. Thankfully Chris' cousin Stephanie (I know freaky huh) was in town and took Chris and I to go get Lacey. When we picked her up she jumped in the car. Robert had stayed on the phone with her until we got there. He was making sure that she was okay. I don't know that many 14 yr olds who would drop his fishing pole and friends to make sure that his girlfriend was okay. Heck most boys at that age don't give a crap. Lacey's truly blessed. And so are we.

Long Over Due Update

Okay so a lot has been going on in the last month or so. Where do I start? !. Alex and Valdelia are no longer a couple. They decided that it was best if they were just friends. 2.Chris got sole custody of Lacey and Katelynn. They dropped there mothers maiden name ,so now instead of Clarkson-Penn they are fully and forever Clarkson. Everyone loves having them with us. Especially Emma Jane. She loves having both her sisters here with her. 24/7 sisters-not every other weekend sisters. A very joyous month! 3.Report Cards all came out and each one of them brought home nothing but A's and B's!!! EVERYONE! Emma Katey Alex and Lacey!!! First time ever. Thank you Worthington Schools!! 4. My doctor called my last week and told me that my Thyroid is whacked and I have to take medicine to get it under control. Well I did some research and found that this could be some of the reasons I haven't been feeling well. Why my hair is falling out. Why I'm such a B*@^#% to my wonderful husband. Why about a lot of things. This news hit me rather hard and I didn't really know how to take it all in. Then I found that the majority of women on my mom's side have problems with their thyroids as well. Now I don't feel so bad about it. It actually make a little sense. This could be the reason we're so Matriartical. You never mess with a Snider/McCoy chick!! Bottom Line: We're happy. We're loved. We're healthy (for the most part). What more could you ask for?!

I Love You

I just wanted to let all my family know that I love them with all my heart. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it weren't for you. Thank you.

Just a few things Lacey has said.

I was going over my daughter Lacey MySpace page and found some things she wrote that hit me to the core. Not in a bad way, but in the best way possible. She brought tears to my eyes. These tears are full of love and admiration. Can I just say that I love my children so much!!!! jette and brittany~lets just start with i love you guys you guys are like my heroes and i know you will help me with anything i need. jette~ILY!!! i know we have had some problems in the past but we still got through it. you are like my mother no matter what happens i will always love you. love everyone in my whole family i know that they will always be there for me even when i screw up. and i know this because i have screwed up, many times. and guess what? they are still there for me because they love me and i love them. that's the one thing i love the most about my family is that they will stick with me through thick and thin. this is a family like no other not everyone is there (britt and josh) but that's because they are just now a part of our family. anyways, we are silly goofy and know how to make each other happy and show that we care. we will always love each other no matter what. i feel at home over at my dads. and i love alex brittany and josh and jordan as if they were my blood relatives. i wouldn't even think about helping them in any way. they are all amazing people and we all fit and have our own special thing. were not afraid of what other people think because were the family that doesn't have to pretend to be perfect we just are! we might not all live together but we all love each other as if we did i love you all<33

Okay Here's Your UPDATE!! hehehehe

So a lot has been going on in the last couple of months. Lacey started dating, Katey's moving in, Alex has his first girlfriend and Emma gets a 27/7 big sister in the house. Where to start first....Lets start with the oldest. Lacey's dating a really sweet young man by the name of Robert. They've been together for about 2 months now. They go to separate schools and only see each other only when Lacey's at our house. Since they started this new thang Lacey was shy and quiet. She very rarely smiled and only gave half hugs. You know the kind...hugs from the side?! NOW she's smiling and she's really happy. She hugs us like she means it and tells us she loves us. When we brought up the fact that this was going on she just said..."You guys show more affection then any family I know. You say you love each other and mean it. You tuck in your children without having them ask. And I want to be around that. I love you guys." This about made Chris and I both cry. Because of this Lacey has pretty much decided to move in with us this summer. (we aren't supposed to know but I overheard hehehe) Now Katey's turn. Apparently Katey's having a hard time at her mothers. So Chris and Debbie thought it was time for Katey to move in with her father. Chris is absolutely thrilled about this of course, but knows it's going to be hard. Everything is changing. Katey won't be able to get away with half of what she gets away with at her mothers. She knows this too. Debbie and Chris have discussed this in length with Katey about what's going to happen. So now Emma Jane is going to have both her big sister and her big brother at her school. :) Emma told me that she didn't know how to handle having both with her all the time. I just sat her down and told her that she was one of the luckiest people on the planet! Now only does she have both her mother and father in the same house now she'll have 2 out of 3 of her siblings. Now on to Alex (which I'm sure my mother and sister and thankful for haha). Just to let ya'll know this is how I woke up this morning...."Hey mommy" "What's up Alex? How did you sleep?" "Oh I slept fine. Oh by the way I have a girlfriend." I'm in the kitchen and my mouth drops. "Excuse me son? You have a WHAT????" "Yeah! Vidella (or Val) and I are boyfriend and girlfriend." "What do you think that means SON?" "Well, we just hold hands and play games all day. Right?!" "Yes son that is what you do. Play video games and hold hands." I send him on his way and call for Chris. "CHRIS!!!!!!!!" Chris runs into the kitchen and I tell him about Alex's and I's conversation. Chris just smiles and goes to talk to Al. When he comes back I asked how it went?! "Everything is just fine honey. Don't worry. It's nothing serious. They're just friends." Chris then kisses me on my head and tells me to drink my coffee before it goes cold. So not only is my oldest daughter dating, but now my only son is too. So this is the jest of what has been going on in the last couple of months. Everyone is healthy and happy. That's all that matters. Love to all!!

Okay

so something happened when I was tring to redo my profile. I'll get back to it soon. Love you all!!

New Pictures

I was bored one night and decided to take a few pictures of me WITH and WITHOUT makeup. Hope you like them. Love you all!!

Just to Vent

Just to let ya'll know this is just something that I have to get off my chest. Please don't judge me. Here's the thing... I'm so sick of people telling me that they're my friends and then when I need them the most they are to high and mighty to help. Where do they get off telling me that I'm not good enough for anything?! Ya'll can suck my balls.

Uncle Larry

My uncle Larry is more than just an Uncle. He was my Grandfather, Uncle, Brother and most importantly my Friend. I just found out the other day that my wonderful Uncle Larry was going to be passing on very soon. I love him so much. He taught me how to dive with only one shot. He was my teacher. Everything he has ever told me I take to heart and follow his lead. If he had looked at me and told me to jump like a kangaroo, on one leg while spinning plates on sticks, I wouldn't hesitate and do my best. That is the type of guy he is.He connected me to my Jewish past and let me know that I was more than just another face in the ground. He made me feel beautiful-not matter what. Some of the great memories of this wonderful man are going even stronger with every waking minute. The times he would stand of his head. I would always worry that he was going to hurt himself. But of course he never did. And when it came time to meet my wonderful husband Chris, he pulled me aside and said he wanted to talk for just a second. When he pulled me aside and asked me a few questions. But the last was the one that meant the most. He asked me "Does this young man treat you like the Princess that you are? Is he your Knight?" I in turn looked into his loving eyes and with a smile on my face said "Yes. Yes Chris does." He took his hands, put them on my face and kissed my forehead so softly that tears came to my eyes. You could feel his love just meld into my soul when he hugged me. I love you so very much Uncle Larry. Who I am in partially because of you. I thank you for all that you have taught me. Your love. Your respect. Your admiration. But mostly thank you from that bottom of my heart and soul for your love in my life. I love you!

New Year's Eve 2008