Feb 23, 2010
Been Awhile.....
For some reason I've been thinking about Poppy. I don't know why?! I thought I was thru all this crying crap! But apparently I'm not. I'll watch a movie and think "Man Poppy would be cracking up right now" or "Look kids a old Chevy" and I start crying. I'm sick of crying. Just sick of it. WHY??!! That's all I can manage right now. Tears are fallin' as we speak.
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My goodness. It's been a long long time since you've done this. These spells are getting further and further apart. You're getting healthier and healthier. You must look at it for what it is. These used to be much more frequent. Realize how much healthier you are becoming. You are bound to have a moment of sadness now and then, we all do. I still have a picture of his hands doing the "catch your eye" placed so I can see it every morning. It usually makes me smile,but sometimes I just sigh... but I need it all the same.
It's not the end of the world that you are crying. That's all. He hasn't even been gone a year yet. You are doing great. Keep going to your meetings and stop being so hard on yourself. Yikes.
Hey! I dreamt last night that you and I were walking through a neighborhood/woods together. It was funny. Penquins were "thawing" and falling out of shrubs and bushes...it was so weird.....
Love you sooooooooo much.
I love you too Mommy. <3
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