Not the best of days

Today was not the best of days. I was denied for social security. I feel horrible about it too. Every time I think of working my heart starts raising and I have an anxiety attacks. I tried. I'm just going to bed.

Someone else's closet

My shopping is going through someone else's closet. I love doing this. I love hand-me-downs. Lacey was going through her closet and decided to get rid of a bunch of clothes...we were on it like fly's to honey. We each got what we wanted and thanked her profusely for the outfits. This seems to happen a lot. I find people who want to give up clothes and I'm right there. I can't say no to a nice shirt. You never know when your going to need it. So tonight I will go through my own clothes and let the girls fight over them....yeah right. I'll donate them. That always makes me feel better about myself.

01/12/2013

I have had the pleasure of having no children under my roof for a week. Al's at his dad's. Babbit's picked up hours. Lacey and Chris are in Gahanna and my babies Emma and Katey are in Ashville. No one should be home till Sunday which I am so happy about. I get Saturday afternoon by myself....much needed time to relax. I'm hoping that I can finish the book I'm reading (The Hobbit) and be at peace. Later I visit my mother, step-father, step-brother and Gammy on Saturday night. Which I'm stoked about as well. Goodnight folks.

I will do my best.....

I am going to do my best to keep my family and friends updated on our lives. So I will try once a week writing a post about what has happened throughout the week....Starting tomorrow lol

I Saw My Dad!!

My husband and I were on the way to his mothers when we decided to turn around and just go home due to the weather. I forgot to buy some milk on Saturday so we went to the Speedway down the street on the way home. I looked up and saw a man with Utah in big letters on a hoodie. And the man who was wearing it was my father. I couldn't get out of the car fast enough. First forgot to grab the keys. Then forgot the phone on the dash. Then a man was taking forever to get into his car and I couldn't open my door. Then my husband was walking out and all I could say was "I just saw my Dad!!". All I heard was Honey? No you didn't. Trust me I said. I walked with the speed that felt like a snail. My legs felt like they were in tar. I slowly walked up to this man and said "Uncle Jeff?". My uncle who by the way is almost identical to my father, was standing in front of me. All I could do was hug him. When he put his arms around me it was like my father was hugging me. I felt his arms holding me. I still feel them. I didn't want to let go. We said some pleasantries and went our separate ways, but hell I almost lost it right there in the store. As soon as I stepped into the car. however is a different story. My amazing husband drove home with me sobbing in the passenger seat. It was strange. To see someone look so much like my father. It brought up so many feelings. I just couldn't hold it in. I miss my father dearly. But I'm happy I got to see him...sort of. It couldn't have come at a better time too. I needed my father. I need him now. There is so much I want to tell him. So many things.