Family Update

Our family Update...

Lacey: lives with the love of her life and has two beautiful children. She's a stay at home momma who rocks homeschooling her preschooler. Lucas is almost 4 years old and loves being naked. He loves trucks and trains. Lana is 8 months old and is so wickedly fat. She loves to giggle and gives the best hugs.

Alexander: works full time as a shift lead at UDF. He helps with the family household and helped Chris and I get our family van. Alex likes to play video games like San Andres and Call of Duty and he also loves funny clips on YouTube.

Katelynn: works at KFC and with the help of her boyfriend they raise their son Christopher or Biggie as we call him. He's a doll baby he is. He has an imagination that blows me away. He loves music, dancing and hanging with Pawpaw.

Emma: is weeks away from getting her diploma and works with her grandpa on the side. She loves to take walks and enjoys being in nature. Emma is an old soul who shows compassion in everything she does. I can't wait TV to see what she brings to the table next year.

Chris & Jette: We work Grubhub and Doordash part time. Delivering food is actually fun. We love our city and love doing what we do.

2018 is gonna rock!

Family Update

First let me start by saying I hope that you have a most wonderful Christmas and happy new year. I hope that the new year brings you happiness and joy. Wealth and beauty.

I going to start with the youngest this time. Emma Jane is officially an adult. 18!!! She is concentrating on graduating high school and beginning a fresh start in the new year. She loves her friends and family and backs them to no end. She is bright and smart as a whip. She's funny and considerate of others feeling. She wears her emotions on the outside, so you always know how she's feeling. She still wants to have a career with animals and/or food. 

Katelynn has completely amazed us all. She has been the most wonderful mother to Christopher Alexander Michael (Cam for short). She is also a tentative and loving girlfriend to Collin. Katey knows how to manage being a working adult and caring mother like a champ. I admire her determination and drive. When she wants something, nothing can get in her way. 

Alexander works full time and helps provide for his family. He has taken it upon himself to make sure that his mother and father are taken care of. He very rarely concerns himself with trivial matters and worries more about the people he loves. He loves taking naps and playing video games in his spare time. He's always there to help with taking out the dogs or doing the dishes. Major trooper.

Lacey is expecting a new little one next year. Lucas is going like a weed. Lacey is very much into DIY projects and homemade dinners. Lucas loves trains and trucks. Both are sensitive and loving. Both are one and the same. He might look more like his granpa Beastie but he's all his momma. Caring and respectful. 

Chris and Jette have had a whirl wind of a year. Adding a new grandchild to the mix, watching everyone grow up into awesome adults and being a family is all that matters. 

I Saw My Dad!!

My husband and I were on the way to his mothers when we decided to turn around and just go home due to the weather. I forgot to buy some milk on Saturday so we went to the Speedway down the street on the way home. I looked up and saw a man with Utah in big letters on a hoodie. And the man who was wearing it was my father. I couldn't get out of the car fast enough. First forgot to grab the keys. Then forgot the phone on the dash. Then a man was taking forever to get into his car and I couldn't open my door. Then my husband was walking out and all I could say was "I just saw my Dad!!". All I heard was Honey? No you didn't. Trust me I said. I walked with the speed that felt like a snail. My legs felt like they were in tar. I slowly walked up to this man and said "Uncle Jeff?". My uncle who by the way is almost identical to my father, was standing in front of me. All I could do was hug him. When he put his arms around me it was like my father was hugging me. I felt his arms holding me. I still feel them. I didn't want to let go. We said some pleasantries and went our separate ways, but hell I almost lost it right there in the store. As soon as I stepped into the car. however is a different story. My amazing husband drove home with me sobbing in the passenger seat. It was strange. To see someone look so much like my father. It brought up so many feelings. I just couldn't hold it in. I miss my father dearly. But I'm happy I got to see him...sort of. It couldn't have come at a better time too. I needed my father. I need him now. There is so much I want to tell him. So many things.

My Wonderfully Crazy Katey

This beautiful young lady is my step-daughter Katelynn (Katey for short). Let me tell you a little about my sweet Katey-Bear. Katey was diagnosed with ADD and ODD (oppositional defiant disorder) when she was very young. This means that when you tell her to jump she will sit If you tell her to go take a shower, she'd rather stink. And add the ADD on top of that, good luck teachers. I believe that she doesn't know what she's really doing, nor does she want to do them. Katey has had it rough. When she came to live with us a little over a year ago, Chris and I thought that it would help her and her relationship with her mother. However, it's gotten worse. So when the last nerve was gone (about a month ago) I decided to change some things around. Before I would scream and shout to get Katey to do anything. Now I talk to her like she doesn't know better. And in all reality she doesn't. She was never taught to talk out her problems. She bottles them up and then when she releases her "mood" watch out. She never really had to do chores. She never had nor was taught how to clean her room, I mean really clean it. Her mother did everything for her. Now I understand not handing out chores at a young age, but damn. Katey was 12 when she moved in. So, now it's up to me and Chris to step in. I've stop yelling and starting talking. You know when you have a toddler and they did something that was wrong?! What do you do? I don't ever recall yelling at my children. I talked to them. Told them to use there words or sign what's wrong. I'm taking this technique and applying it to a 13 year old. And it seems to be working. Tonight Katey kept getting out of bed after I already tucked her in for the night. I at first, got really pissed off. This would be the 10th time I put her to bed. In the mist of the arguing I stopped and asked Katey what happened today that would make her so mad and upset. She proceeded to tell me about her day. Come to find out some of her friends were being cruel to her. We talked it out. You could see on her face how much she loved that. How much she needed it. I made jokes and made her laugh. Which we all know, cures all. When we were about done with the conversation I asked her what her dad told to to say (in her head) before she does something stupid. Her response was, "What would my Dad say or do to me if I do....." I then told her I didn't want her to think that anymore. She gave me the most quizzeled look. I told her that I wanted her to think..."Is Jette going to kick my ass if I do...." Katey's father works A LOT and her mother isn't around as much as she should be. So all that's left is me. :) And now she knows it. I love my husband, but he just doesn't have it in him to discipline. It's now up to me. Lacey's good. Emma knows better. Alex has is moments. And now Katelynn knows. I also found out that she was bragging to her friends that her and I were getting along. Her friends (whom know me very well) fell over with amazement. This tells me that I'm doing something good here. Don't get me wrong, Chris has tried very hard to get to Katey. I just think she needed a mother. And a mother I am. And I'm good at it. I know that when Katelynn is grown and on her own, she'll know what I did for her and how much I love her. She's my daughter and that will never change.

Poppy Tattoo

My husband know how much I wanted my Poppy tattoo. So on the one year anniversary of my fathers passing I got my tattoo. I put it on my left leg. You know when you walk on the street and your mom or dad walk on the outside so you don't get hurt?! Well this is a way for my Poppy to protect me. I love you Poppy. You're always in my heart.

California Dreaming

I have been here for about a week and loving every minute of it. Let me start off by saying thank you to my wonderful family here. They are really shown me a great time. I have loved hanging out with my mother, sister and her beautiful children. They have taken me pretty much where ever I wanted to go. We went to Old Town Temecula (hope I spelled that right lol) and had some of the best Root Beer on the planet. They actually have a store with nothing but root beer. It's great. I was totally channeling my brother Eli when I was there. He loves that place and now I see why. I went whale watching, which was amazing. There were two Minke Whales that was playing with the boat. My niece and I were watching them go under the water and come up on the other side of the boat. It was like they were there for only us. It's was breathtaking to say the least. I have a whole new love for the water now. And no, it does not mean I'm going swimming any time soon. lol Then on Thursday I got to go to my favorite part of Southern California.....The desert! Palm Desert to be exact. My mother took me to Joshua Tree and I was blown away. I sat on a hill and looked out over the vast lands. It brought me to tears. Happy tears! When I was done meditating I looked to my right and saw the most beautiful thing ever. A rock formation that looked like a Father holding his little girl. I could see the child's eyes, mouth and even her hair up in a ponytail. I immediately thought of my own Father and was brought to tears again. Not the sad tears that I normally shed in this kinds of situation, but tears of love and happiness. It felt like I was that little girl and my own father was holding me. I felt my father at the moment and it was amazing. He was there with me. He had his arms around me telling me that everything was going to be okay. That I was going to be just fine. He's happy now. Happy and healthy. Like he should be. And that was very very comforting to me. Who knows what the next week will bring, but I'm sure it's going to be amazing.

Watch Out California...Here I Come!!

Okay. I'm going to California for 2 weeks and I'm totally excited. I get to see my family. Go to Disneyland. Go to Joshua Tree. Pretty much I'm going to enjoy my little vacation. I was originally I was going to go out there for about 2 months, but I made commitments here and need to stick to them. I'm just really stoked about this trip. I don't know exactly why?! But I'm really happy about this. I need this. I really really need this. I need to be with my mommy. My sister. My tadpoles. MY FAMILY! I need them. I've had a very rough year (2009 sucked hairy donkey balls) and deserve this. Everyone deserves a vacation. I will post pics as soon as they arrive. I'm sure my wonderful Sister and beautiful Mother will help with that. I'm so blessed to have them in my life. I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY FAMILY!! Okay. I'm rambling on now. Next time I write...........I WILL BE IN CALIFORNIA!! YEAH!!!!

Happy Birthday to EVERYONE!!

In these photos are some of the most important people in my life. And it happens that their birthdays are smooched together. (which makes it easy to remember hehe) First Eli...Man what can I say. When Mommmy brought you home from the hospital I know that our family was truly complete. You were so big, but so little to me. I remember seeing your face and just fallin in love. I made a promise that I would be a great big sister. I vowed to never let you down. I hope that I've kept that promise. I love you very much and I'm extremely blessed to have you in my life. Happy Birthday. You old fart!! Second Holly.....Girl what can I say. I'm so happy that my brother chose such a wonderful wife. You bring so much fun to our very dis'fun'ctional famly. I love your laugh. I love the way you're blunt with Mommy. You're so awesome I can't even explain. I love you very much. Happy Birthday!! Now last but definitely not least my First ever Tadpole Mae....Honey I remember the day you were born. I was so excited to have a little niece to play with. You are so beautiful (just like your Mommy). I'm always amazed by you wit and spirt. Even though you are so young, you set such a wonderful example to EVERYONE you come across. I love you sweety have a WONDERFUL birthday.

A Special Email

My wonderful Aunt Linda sent me an e-mail and sadly I never really read it until tonight. I was always to busy or just didn't feel like reading at that time. If it doesn't have pictures I may just pass it by. Just kidding of course, however I was sorting through all the mail when I had a strong need to read what was sent to me weeks ago. I was blown away! It was exactly what I needed to hear and at one of my lowest moments to boot. I wanted to share it with all of you and hope it fills your hearts as it did mine. Thank you Aunt Linda for these wonderful words. I love you!! ***** Wrote By Natatlie Tucker Miller---There is no urgency, ever Great things happen when you feel safe and are in an environment rich with possibility. More than ever I understand that you can learn a lot about how someone feels about themselves by listening to what they are saying about others. If you spend too much time concerned about a back up plan, the chance is great that you will end up doing the back up plan. Life will deliver to you what you expect. Be willing to stand by your ideas while allowing others to do the same, no matter how opposing they may seem. If you want quality, abandon deadlines. Instead, target dates will keep you on track with the built in flexibility that will net more satisfying results. Everything works out in the end. If it hasn’t worked out, it’s not the end. The notion that nothing is personal has more power than anything else I’ve learned. However anyone feels about you or what you are doing is from their unique frame of reference. That’s all any of us have until we decide to remove the frame and allow an unlimited view. This is when relationships can grow and strengthen even under the most adverse of conditions. There is always a choice. Everybody is right. Replacing self-criticism with self-reflection has magic powers. Inspire others by being inspired by them.

Father's Day

This is how I remember my father. Happy, healthy and full of live. This is how I will always see him. He loved cars and a hanging out with his family. I can't be with him today of all days. I cry every time someone says "Happy Fathers Day". It doesn't feel the same. My father's not here. Why should I be happy? Yeah I know Chris is my kids dad, and he deserves the absolute best. He's a great father. I give him many kudos for being who he is. He's the best. I couldn't ask for someone better. It's just very hard to see my kids going to their dad and hugging, kissing and giving homemade cards and I can't do the same. It hurts so much. So very much. Please don't get me wrong...I'm very thankful for all the fathers out there. Y'all rock!! Really you do. I just want mine back.