Mother's Day

I wanted to tell all the mothers out there Happy Mother's Day!! Especially my wonderful Mom. She has done more for me then she could ever imagine. She has taught me right and wrong. Good and evil. But most of all she has taught me to Love. No matter what I've done in the past (or plan to do in the future) she has my back. And I have hers. My mother is more than a Mom, she's my best-friend. I can tell her anything. And I do mean ANYTHING! If it wasn't for my wonderful Mother I have no idea where or who I'd be right now. She once told me that I should find someone who I respect, trust, love and honor to be like. Or somewhat like. I choose my Mommy. She's beautiful, caring, loving, and non-judgmental. She's everything I want to be when I decide to grow up. I love you Mommy!! Happy Mother's Day.

How Things Are Going.....

I have good days and I have bad days, just like everyone else. I'm staying on top of my meds and feeling good about myself. And it's been a looooong time since that has happened. The kids are doing good. Alex is playing the Trombone and still in Boy Scouts. Katey is reading so much I practically have to rip the books away at bedtime. Emma is still Emma. Cute and wonderful. Always worried about someone or something. But in a good way. She's always been full of love and this is what amazes me about my youngest daughter. She sees the light in everything. Lacey...well lets just say that being 15 yrs old is rough. Of course! However, she is coming through with fling colors. Chris and I just celebrated out 5 year anniversary this past Friday. WOW 5 years!!! I'm shooting for about 100,000,000,000,000 years more. ;) I'm still going to counseling and seeing my doctor on a regular basis. Things seem to be lighting up for all of us. I feel I have to say this, though I believe everyone already knows, I love my family with every fiber of my being. My kids and husband have been through the ringer with me and they have stayed by my side through the whole ordeal. The last several months have been difficult I know, but they are all there to make me smile..even if I don't want to. My mother, sister and brothers (this includes husbands and wives) have supported me in whatever I do. They have been there to listen to me cry or scream or yell or really anything. I love you all very much. Thank you for being in my life. And I also know that my wonderful Poppy is always with me. Right next to me when I need him the most. I can feel him!! Anyway I just wanted to give an update and whatnot's. I love you all and will talk to everyone real soon!!

In Loving Memory Of Donald Lee Bowman II. I love forever and always.

The man standing with all the children is my wonderful Father, Donald Lee Bowman II. He passed away today (5-04-09). He was 58 years young and full of life. He was a strong and caring man. He was my Poppy. He will be missed. One of my fondest memories of my dad was when my son was born. He held Alex in his arms and would whisper in his ear. I never knew what he told him that day at the hospital but whatever it was Alex listened. After Poppy was finished, Alex decided that his first (pardon the expression) fart was going to be in his grandfathers arms. Poppy just looked at him and smiled. Then said "Good he works. We don't have to give him back." I had a great chuckle over that. I remember going to an overnight camp and when my mom and dad came to pick us up I was in tears. I was so happy to see my Poppy. I never went to camp after that. I remember at nights when my dad had to work late, I would stay up until I heard his voice say "I'm home." then I would go right to sleep. I remember pizza nights in front of the TV watching Micheal Jackson's Moon Walk movie. I remember when I was in any trouble I would go to my Poppy first. He was always the one that would get me out of the trouble I was in, and he was never mad. I will always remember the look the look in his eyes every time he looked at his grandchildren. He was always full of love for them. They always came first. He would bring me clothes, toys, furniture and most of all he would bring them candy. Skittles, MMs, paydays, you name it he would bring it. Poppy will forever and always be loved. You're in a better place Poppy. I'm sure Grandma Helen was there to greet you with open arms. I know that you'll be watch over not only your children but your grandchildren as well. You hold a piece of my heart until I see you again. I love you with all my heart and soul.

Update about Lacey

Okay. So Lacey told me something rather interesting right after I posted my last entry. Lacey's friend that threw the party has completely changed her ways, because of Lacey. She acually said that! Lacey showed courage and strength and this young lady saw it. Lacey told me that this child has quit smoking, doing drugs and her grades are back up to B's. She told Lacey that after she left the cops were called and she got really scared. Basicly scared her straight. She got a glemise of something that she didn't like. Reality sunk in for her. When Lacey told me this I was in tears. Of course we all know that Lacey is sensitive, loving and very accepting of other. However, I think that Lacey needed to have someone else see it before she acually believed us. After all we are her family and just a little biased. Lacey I love you with all my heart and soul. You mean the world to your father and I. I'm truely blessed to have such a wonderful daughter. Thank you for being you. I love you sweetheart!

Lacey and Robert

Okay so this might not be the best picture of Lacey and Robert but it'll do. Robert is a 14 yr. old from Reese Ohio. Lacey is 14 yr. old from Worthington (yeah!!!). They both came from completely different families. Different friends. Different schools. Different everything. But somehow this wonderful young man has made my daughter very happy. It's only been a few months but you can see the love in their eyes. Robert makes Lacey smile. Not the smile that a teenager puts on her face for friends and family. A real genuine smile. A smile that you give the one that you love with all your heart. I can see she cares for this boy. And he cares for her. For example: Lacey went to a party at a so-called friends house. She thought it was going to be her friend and herself. Then her "friend" called a bunch of senors and older boys. Lacey got uncomfortable. This "friend" of hers also started snorting X (very strong street drug). Lacey got even more scared. She didn't know what to do, so she called Robert. Robert was fishing with his buddies when he got the call. Lacey was freaking out but Robert kept his cool. He told her to go into the bathroom and lock the door, he would call her right back. He in turn called his dad Scott, and told him the situation. Robert called Lacey and told her to call her dad. When she did this, Scott called to let us know what was going on. Thankfully Chris' cousin Stephanie (I know freaky huh) was in town and took Chris and I to go get Lacey. When we picked her up she jumped in the car. Robert had stayed on the phone with her until we got there. He was making sure that she was okay. I don't know that many 14 yr olds who would drop his fishing pole and friends to make sure that his girlfriend was okay. Heck most boys at that age don't give a crap. Lacey's truly blessed. And so are we.

Uncle Larry

My uncle Larry is more than just an Uncle. He was my Grandfather, Uncle, Brother and most importantly my Friend. I just found out the other day that my wonderful Uncle Larry was going to be passing on very soon. I love him so much. He taught me how to dive with only one shot. He was my teacher. Everything he has ever told me I take to heart and follow his lead. If he had looked at me and told me to jump like a kangaroo, on one leg while spinning plates on sticks, I wouldn't hesitate and do my best. That is the type of guy he is.He connected me to my Jewish past and let me know that I was more than just another face in the ground. He made me feel beautiful-not matter what. Some of the great memories of this wonderful man are going even stronger with every waking minute. The times he would stand of his head. I would always worry that he was going to hurt himself. But of course he never did. And when it came time to meet my wonderful husband Chris, he pulled me aside and said he wanted to talk for just a second. When he pulled me aside and asked me a few questions. But the last was the one that meant the most. He asked me "Does this young man treat you like the Princess that you are? Is he your Knight?" I in turn looked into his loving eyes and with a smile on my face said "Yes. Yes Chris does." He took his hands, put them on my face and kissed my forehead so softly that tears came to my eyes. You could feel his love just meld into my soul when he hugged me. I love you so very much Uncle Larry. Who I am in partially because of you. I thank you for all that you have taught me. Your love. Your respect. Your admiration. But mostly thank you from that bottom of my heart and soul for your love in my life. I love you!