Somthing From The Heart

Okay so not many people know that I used to be very overweight. If you are one of the few whom seen me at my biggest know it was very hard on me. I worked and worked to become healthy. Not fat, not skinny just healthy. When I was at my biggest (2000-2004) I was 250 lbs!! At my skinniest (2007) I was only 100 lbs. I was very depressed and alone at the time when I was heavy. I was going through a time that was very stressful. I had 2 children within 22 months and alone. My son was dianosied with Autism. My daughter couldn’t hear very well and needed to go to speech therapy. And to take the cake I married a man who not only hit me but called me the most hurtful things. In this time I gained so much weight that I couldn’t do anything. I was running in circles, going no where. I was in such a rut that I would eat a whole family sized cherry pie by myself, drink a 24 pack soda/day and feel sorry for myself everyday. There were times that I would try to loose the weight. I would try all sorts of different diets and fads. I found a Dietitian and she pointed me in the right direction. Teaching me how to eat correctly and not over due it with food. It worked for a while, I lost about 100 lbs or so over a year time. Then I got married and it all came back. The man I was married to was a horrible monster. He was so mean that the only thing I could do right was eat his cooking. So that’s what I did. For about a year. When I decided to leave him I lost about 20 lbs or so. I was getting thinner. When the divorce was final I lost another 50 lbs. When I got married to my TRUE LOVE Christopher in 2004 my weight was furthest from my mind. I didn’t care what I looked like. He loved me for me nothing less. Just me. I admit I had gotten comfortable in our relationship and put on a few pounds but I even didn’t care. It wasn’t until I tried to quit smoking that I put on the most recent weight. I ballooned up to about 220 lbs. I needed to do something and do it fast. I got a job that I really loved and was working during the time that I would normally eat. And when the pounds started falling off I went crazy with it. I stopped eating all together. I only ate when I was around my family. Just to prove that I was eating. I never ate a work. If I ate in public or in front of friends I would nibble and push the food around or take it home and gave it to Chris. By July 4, 2007 I was only 100lbs. I went to a family reunion and everyone was stunned. Some people said that I was fit looking, but needed some meat. Others stared and gossiped. Some members of my family thought I was on serious drugs because my weight plummeted so fast. This was my wake-up call. Now it’s almost April 2008 and I’m a healthy 135 lbs or so. I have kept myself at this weight for the last couple months and I’m finally comfortable with myself. I like me for who I am.

What a Day

Today was a great day. I had a great back-line and 2 detrashers. Which meant that I was at my best. No one called my name for a fix. I either caught it myself or my back-line found it. It was great!! Tosha told me that I was going to get rewarded for my crapy numbers last week but I didn't expect all of that. I was getting nothing but large orders and pushed about 7,000 units in 9 hours. I only have one concern... I don't want anyone else to get mad at me for getting good stuff. Everyone is getting great numbers and all, but I just don't want anyone to get upset. I have told Tosha that I would do the nasty pallets (because I go trough them in half the time then the others). I just don't know what to do. I have done what I can, telling the appropriate people and whatnot. But they aren't saying anything because the numbers are high and it makes them look good. Other than all of that it was a fine day. I got Dave (Chris' step-dad) a job at McGraw. He's a temp but it's a foot in the door. It's cool working with him. We really do have so much in common. I can honestly say he's one of my best friends. We hang out on a regular and love the same things. For example Dave wanted me to listen to a song that he really liked. Well the first thing that popped in my head was some death metal video with sex and blood. But I was wrong he turned to Allison Krause. I couldn't believe my eyes. I love her music. I had no idea he did to. He them proceeded to tell me that Allison was his second favorite female singer. I looked bewildered and confused and just chuckled under my breath. I regained my composer and asked who was his favorite female singer. He looked very serious and said Stevie Nicks. I couldn't believe it. She's my favorite singer of all time too. I guess as the old saying goes "never judge a book by it's cover."

Eli's Graduation

So Chris, Alexander, Emma Jane and I went to my little brothers graduation from THE OHIO STATE UNIVERSITY!! I am so proud of this little guy. I have watched him struggle and go through some really hard times in the 26 years he has been on this earth. Eli is a great example to my children and to me. Not only is he a strong man, but he is a rightious one to boot. I know that if I need anything ever I can call him and and he'll be there in a heartbeat. Eli is kind and sweet to everyone around him. I don't know one person who has anything negitive to say about him. Everyone loves him. And so do I!! Keep up the great work Banks.

Nothing But Snow!!

Okay so I didn't take this picture (I'll leave that up to Abby) but this is the only one I could find to show what it looks like out my door. Our local news channel is comparing this blizzard to 1978 and 1987. I remember the blizzard of 1987. It was beautiful. Snow was everywhere. Ice was hanging off the trees. Well this is better. Emma Jane, Chris and I took the dogs out just to see what they would do. Stoney loved it. She's an Akita Husky and loves the snow. She waits for days like this all year long. DOG was running around pushing the snow with his nose. The other 3 Tok, Keeper and Q-Bit were basically under the snow. Tok had to jump from spot to spot. Most of the time she following Stoney or DOG, just to have a place to jump and not get covered. Emma and I went for a short walk together just to see what it was like in the neighborhood. We went around the block and decided to go home. The snow went up to Emma's knees. We were laughing so hard that we kept falling in the snow. Our fingers and piggies were frozen. Of course Emma immediately ran into a hot shower the went back over to a friends house to play. She is loving this too. When she woke up she opened the front door and the snow was about 8 inches up against the door. You know when you watch the movies and people get snowed in because the snow is against the door?? Yeah it sorta like that. Quite cool really. Well I better go. I want to make sure Emma has some Hot Chocolate when she comes home. Just like my mommy made for me.

Good And Bad Day

Today was a good and bad day. I got almost 6000 units in 8 hrs (which is really good). Then we heard that a particularly tiring part of the day was going to be shortened to only about 15 minutes vs 30 to 45. Everyone who runs the end of the day papers went running to Darlene. She told us that it was a surprise and we would have to wait till the end of the day. So we waited...and waited....and waited. Finally 3 o'clock came around and we all went for Darlene. She began to tell us that we were going to a new bar code system. And that (we shall call him "reggie") Reggie came up most of it. Now another co-worker and I went to Darlene about 2 weeks ago with the same idea. My friend went nuts. He was pissed. All he kept saying was "Stephanie and I talked about going to a bar code with Darlene before he even had it in his head!" I can understand his frustrations. I'm really upset about it, however it's in place and there is nothing that either one of us can do now but kvetched about it. So I'm watching the wife of Reggie do all the paper work solely because she's his wife. Then Darlene came up to me and with a little smirk said "I have a new toy for you!!" I got so elated. She wanted to give me the new papers personally. I was touched. Later on when I was about to leave she came up to me and told me that she really appreciates all that I do for the department. She even told me I was her best CRT. That was huge! She said that I was always the best and she is glad that it's starting to really show. I of course said thank you numerous times. Then my team lead came up to me and told me that she was going on vacation and she wanted showed me where items were that we might need for the next week. Then she made a comment about her work knife. She wanted to leave it at work in her desk but she was afraid someone might use it and not return the knife. I told her that I would keep it in my desk in the back for safe keeping, chuckling not knowing that she would take me seriously. She handed me her knife and said thanks. So maybe I had more of a good day then what I initially thought. One beauty of writing everything down.